Blogging’s Impact


I have received some kind comments, someone even said they found my blog encouraging which pleased me a great deal. One of the things that often makes me hesitant to continue writing on this site is that it quickly became a place where I wrote down a lot of my darkest thoughts and went into quite a lot of detail about my feelings when I was at very low points in my life and I don’t know how useful that is to anyone who may be reading it. I worry that my very depressing and probably frequently triggering posts may make someone who happens to stumble upon this site feel worse and I really don’t want that to happen.

The problems I experience are not typical of every social anxiety sufferer and just because you might have the same condition, it doesn’t mean you are going to end up a wreck like I am. I have made a lot of bad decisions in life and depression along with anxiety and possibly having an avoidant personality have all contributed to where I am now.


10 thoughts on “Blogging’s Impact

  1. eleanor

    Your posts are very interesting to read and are a help. They make me feel like I wasn’t the only person with SA. I’m much better now (I’ve been socialised through work) and hope you will be.


  2. When I was dealing with feelings of dread and doom on a daily basis, I tried every medication out there and they didn’t help me long term. The feelings just kept getting stronger and stronger over the years. Finally I figured out that it was being caused by my own habits and routines. The food I ate, the alcohol or smoking here and there. The lack of exercise, etc. My body simply wasn’t getting what it needed and it was trying to tell me through feelings of constant panic and anxiety. I finally stopped most of the bad habits, including the meds. I started watching what I ate. I started taking some herbs and supplements. I started walking for 30 minutes every day. I started deep breathing exercises. After doing all this for almost 4 years, I am now anxiety free. My advice is Don’t believe there is a magic pill out there because it doesn’t exist. Take matters into your own hands.


  3. Your blog *is* encouraging…even when you’re just sharing how depressed you are and how difficult things are for you. There’s enough Tony Robbin-esque rah-rah you-can-do-anything-if-you-set-your-mind-to-it BS on the internet already. Where’s the people who struggle? Where’s the people who haven’t made it? Where’s the people who deal with feeling like a failure everyday… and will *admit* it? It makes me feel SO much better to not be alone. To feel like I’ve been walking through this masquerade ball full of strangers behind masks, strangers who laugh at and mock me…and suddenly to see a face…an honest face.

    I turned 33 today and I have dealt with severe SA and depression since I was 6 or 7 years old. They feed each other. I would be in the same boat you are (living with parents or some such) except that I’m female and went on Paxil for my SA when I was 20…it worked wonderfully and I ended up married within 3 months. Then it stopped working. It was a truly wonderful and enlightening 3 months though… I’m a stay-at-home mom with 5 kids now. Honestly, I’m a hide-at-home mom. It’s not as easy for people to judge me as harshly as they do you, but they still manage to.

    So keep writing. Please. Your words are not wasted.


  4. minime345

    Hi, i just came across your blog 10 minutes ago and you have made me feel less alone with my social anxiety than anyone else who i’m close to has 🙂 Every blog post I’ve read so far has described what i’m going through. It is so liberating and encouraging to know i’m not the only person in the world going through SA, that i’m not the only person who feels lost and judged. I’m sure there are so many other people reading your blog feeling the same way I do.Don’t think for a minute that your blog is doing any harm…cause it’s not. If anything its helping people its already helped me tonight. All the comments people have left shows just how much your blog has an effect on people. Keep writing, if not for yourself, for us, all the people who you’ve comforted, just by sharing your deepest, darkest feelings! 😀


  5. Adrienne

    Please don’t stop your blogging of your honesty. I can’t believe how similarly I feel (but couldn’t describe) as you have described. And it is almost like a true friend patting you on the back and saying, “You’re not alone.” Just to know that I’m not alone in feeling like this…gives me encouragement to not end life today.


  6. Olivia

    Hi Nick,
    it really is encouraging, as I responded on another post. I felt quite alone with the feelings that I had. your situation of ¨someone pointing out something you have that is uncool to them, gets you very down¨ is EXACTLY what I experience a lot.
    I hope you keep on posting and you are so brave to put it out in the public, it really is encouraging.
    For me it helps that I am not alone. and next time when my housemates walk all over me, or being excluded in my class, I will remember this. Because this is what I have been struggling with, I cannot seem to make any friends and I have been wondering what is wrong with me and I get very anxious thinking of entering a social gathering, even such this as my class, knowing I never fit in.
    but then, I have other interests than the people around me.
    And justb ecause they think it is cool, and they try to point out how uncool I am for not sharing their interests. I will remember your post, I am not the only one and I am not strange, I am just a little different.
    Thank you a lot!! really!!


  7. ATQG

    I appreciate this blog, definitely keep it up. Even though I’d never wish this struggle on anyone else, it’s comforting to know I’m not alone. As for feeling like it’s too negative, you need a place to vent… and it’s nice for people like me to see we’re not alone. I wish you the best. 🙂


  8. I appreciate you sharing your darkest thoughts. They are so eerily similar to my own. Wow, I’m not alone. I’m recently coming to grips with the notion that I have Social Anxiety – the result of being severely bullied and ostracized as a child. Please keep sharing. Somehow it makes me feel better to know I’m not alone. One of the few thoughts that has helped keep me alive – I want to see how my story turns out. Maybe there’s still a few good things yet to happen. I want to see how your story turns out. I’m cheering for good things to come your way…. my way too.

    I started my own blog here on WordPress, but my social anxiety has gotten so bad lately that I deleted my blog posts and I’m even really quiet on Facebook these days. (People can be such meaniepants on Facebook.)

    Thanks for being here and thanks for having the courage to be honest that I didn’t have. It really helps and sets a good example for me. ❤ ❤ ❤ Lotsa Love your way. ❤ ❤ ❤


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