I’m sorry for worrying people with my blog entries last night, I really did feel awful. Today I managed to go down to the hospital and get myself some help. I was feeling horribly low, and also very anxious but I got help from the lovely Emma and after waiting for 20 minutes trying to summon up the courage, I went in. After a long wait I ended up talking to a psychiatrist for about an hour, which was a great help and I felt a lot better after letting some of the feelings out. She was much more helpful that my mental health practitioner, I probably covered more in the hour than over 5 months of MHP appointments. We covered some relaxation techniques and talked through a lot of stuff about uni and I felt like a weight lifted from my shoulders. They gave me a Valium as well so it maybe that speaking, but at the moment I feel a whole let better than last night.
I want to say thank you for the comments and kind thoughts, I often feel like no-one cares about me but it was nice to hear them.
The Social Phobic 
You know I’m always here to help and I’m glad I could today 🙂 x
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Nick –
Glad you are feeling better. Your last post didn’t sound good at all. When you are feeling really down – try to use a distraction. Sounds like you could use some Cognitive Behavioral Therapy?
I was referred by my psychologist to get this CBT – to change all my horrible, awful, negative thoughts about myself. Seriously, i’ve been beating myself up my whole life in my head about how stupid and a mess up I am, when in reality I know those thoughts are ridiculous – but my brain is looking for stimulation and my psychologist said that i’ve conditioned it to be stimulated by negative thoughts. Positive thoughts are not stimulating enough.
hang in there – please – you are so young. You have much to live for.
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I have been referred for CBT but it’s going to take up to a year before I can get it. Thanks for the advice, I’m feeling quite a lot better now.
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good to know ur having a better day today
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Hi Nick I’m really glad you managed to get yourself some help and that it has made you feel better than before
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Hi Nick
So glad to see this post from you, and congrats on seeking help – Its not easy.
x
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Thanks everyone, it was difficult and I couldn’t have done it without encouragement, but I’m glad I did.
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