Reality Sinking In


I got my university accommodation contract to sign this weekend and I have to phone up and pay my deposit tomorrow. This has brought home the reality of the situation to me, I will be leaving the house that I’ve lived in since 1991 and I thought I would probably waste away in. I am so scared about being on my own. I have not lived away from home before and I am starting to doubt how well I am going to cope. I really want to do this and get my degree, I don’t think I’d want to live if I drop out again, I’ll never have a third chance. 

An internet friend of mine told me that there will be other people there who aren’t into the whole partying and drunkenness thing like me, but I find it incredibly hard to believe. I can just envisage myself being an outcast because I don’t like that sort of thing, not to mention all my other shortcomings and weirdness. It seems like that is one of the main reasons people look forward to going to university for, and I am so worried about appearing stuck up or holier than thou for not wanting to be involved with that. I don’t look down on people or think I’m better than them (quite the opposite in fact) but from what I’ve read on the internet, non-drinkers are almost universally reviled.


3 thoughts on “Reality Sinking In

  1. mspennylane

    I really hope you have a good experience at university. Remember that you don’t need to try and be friends with everyone. Most people when they move into halls etc. think they need to make as many friends as possible and that is the right thing to do. I did this too, but they weren’t real friends and I realised even if you have one good friend it’s better than having 30 other friends for the sake of it. I feel like shyness/ awkwardness can make people think I are rude or whatever, but at the end of the day the people who know you and know how you feel won’t think that. And even though it’s hard, there will be people who get to know you even if you do act like that.


  2. Thanks mspenny, I don’t even know if I’m going to make it that far though. I appreciate your advice a lot and I will definitely keep that in mind if I go.


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