I got the appointment over and done with this afternoon, not much came of it really. I told her about how bad I’ve been feeling and some more about the crappy experiences I had at work, which she seemed quite upset about. On a personal level I think it makes her sad to hear what I have to say, especially about the way people have made me feel about myself. I don’t really like it when she looks at me all concerned. Anyway, I have another appointment with her next week to try and challenge these negative thoughts that I wrote down. I don’t fancy doing that much because I just cannot believe the alternatives to the things I wrote, I feel as though I’d just be burying my head in the sand.
When I got back today, my mum told me that she is going to France for a couple of days with her boyfriend to look at this house of his, they were meant to be going for a week earlier in the month but she changed her mind because she didn’t want to leave me alone She asked me if I wanted to go, and although I am scared about going somewhere where I cannot easily get home if I wanted to, I’ve never been out of this country before so that would be nice. There isn’t long for me to decide if I want to go or not, hmm what to do…
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I think you should take the oppertunity and go. (Not that I want to get rid of you!) Avoidance only makes fears worse and you’ll have your mum, a familiar face. x
I would go, having your mother there will make it easier (you won’t have to actually use any French), and if it’s only for a few days, then there’s not a lot that can go wrong.
I went when I was younger and socially phobic as hell, and it was OK… and I’ve even been on my own now, several times!
I’ve decided to go 🙂 Thanks for the encouragement!